A dislike of others giving me an injection.

"You can't be scared of an injection, you do them every day!"


Yes I do, and you just hit the nail on the head by saying "YOU do them". I am scared of going for other injections because it's usually me who does them, not someone else, the minute someone else comes towards me with a big needle is the minute I start to panic.


And I can't watch them do it either, the nurse was having a good laugh at me about this the other day, she was giving me a HPV and a flu jab, one in each arm, and I was tense, I wouldn't watch her and I cringed at the sound of the stuff going in. She was laughing, but told me it's something she finds a lot with diabetics.


The thing is, I'm a paradox anyway. I am scared of needles (I've learnt to do my injections without actually looking at the point when it punctures my skin, that's the bit I don't like because it makes me feel queasy). I am also scared of blood, this coming from a girl who was going into hospital on a weekly basis a couple of years ago in order to have blood taken from me, and from someone who tests her blood sugar (on average) 4 times a day. 


A non diabetic informed me the other day that she could never be diabetic because she is scared of needles and scared of blood, I asked her then how she thought I did it, and more importantly, why she thought I did it. 


The point is, if you were starving hungry but really really couldn't stand pasta, but the only thing to eat was pasta and nothing else, are you going to starve or are you going to eat what you dislike? I know what I'd do, but then that's just me. And this is a little more drastic I guess, would you rather try and ignore your fears of needles and live, or are you going to continue to be scared of them and avoid them and run the risk of an early death? 


Sorry it is blunt, but I can think of no other way to put it.


Keep Smiling :)
Love, Tutti-Frutti
xxx

Diabetes Control In Work

I started my job a while back and I think I have to comment on this because there have been some implications on my diabetes that I honestly say I did not see coming.


Firstly, I have to highlight the importance of breaks. I was working 6 hour shifts with no break, so I wasn't eating, wasn't injecting properly, wasn't getting a drink, and it near killed me. I became so tired and lethargic, my concentration suffered and it actually took me to almost faint on the shop floor before they realised how important it was going to be for me to take a break.


Also, there is an importance around not letting your work stress you too much. On Sunday I was astronomically stressed and found that my blood sugars were all over the place and as a result I had to have (yet another) day off college on Monday to recover from Sunday night being up sorting them out, basically I was exhausted.


Speaking of exhaustion, that's another thing to watch out for. I am totally past it at the minute, I am past everything, and I have gotten myself into such a vicious cycle because I'm stressed with the amount of work that I am doing alongside college, which is making it so I can't sleep but I am already overtired, because I am so tired I am having to miss days of college which is stressing me because I'm missing days and it's an awful cycle and I can't keep in control of it. And I am suffering, I'll be honest I really really am.


I don't think it is just a diabetes thing, but I think that I have to take that into consideration aswell because it would be silly of me to ignore the fact that it is having an effect on my diabetes. 


I think the point of this post was to basically serve as a warning to people with diabetes starting out new jobs and having other things on top, a job is fantastic, but if it infringes your health you aren't going to be working to the best of your ability.


Keep Smiling :)
Love, Tutti-Frutti.
xxx